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the radical reconciliation or not.
Saturday, February 04, 2006

is was great to be back in svc. thinkin whether it was more appropriate to stay or leave. i felt a pulling. of cos i hope is not a pushin from my avoidance. a mistake i won't do it again. my heart and soul cried. this song.
i love You Lord, and i lift my voice.
to worship You, O my soul rejoice.
Take joy my King, in what You hear,
let it be a sweet sweet sound in Your ear.
felt broken. like nv before. it was pain. thus, my worship. ish was a let go.

a story to tell. ish not a book. ish ur life. can ur life be a testimony to tell a story of Jesus? i strongly say i cannnn- NOT. my pain increases. what hv i been really doin? really off tracked. after quarelling with my dad jus a few minutes ago. wat else can i feel besides pain and broken? each shout spoken thru our mental barriers jus pierced. jus can't talk. everything add's up. work. family. friends. lifestyle. future. and even health. can't i jus maintain a neat room? can't i jus restrain myself? can't i b more sensitive? or am i not purposeful enough? hv i incurred the wrath of God? dat serious?? it may be... and tis may b my story up to tis date. brokenness. a stage which could be my beginning of another chapter. hope is a sweet ending.

To ethan.. a declaration of my love. lol. jus wat u wanted. a sendin off msg. for the whole world to knw. is the only way man. waha.
a lovely 3-days stop. sry for not sendin off. da nxt time u c me, i'll be at either the Hillsong church, Hs city church, or Bondi Beach yeh? ur lovely 3-days phone call and meeting ups have been an uplift for me. better get urself an asian(not ancient pls. if u wan old lady, no comments.) babe b4 i come. and refrain kate frm gettin any guys. so i got companion. lol. or mayb i'll jus go dere without u guys. and get Uli and erm.. (shucks i forgot his sis' name!)..yeh. wateva her name is. along with me. long time since i saw Grandunkle. i'll jus treat ya home as hotel. xD cool? u better think it is.