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Monday, August 01, 2005

1 August 05 Monday

in a time where sickness and illness seems so overwhelming.
causing you to think are u gonna die anytime in the process?

thursday was a day of celebration for one of my working colleague.
ate southern indian food. fried here and there. murtabak and mutton.
very full. but it didn't have good side effects for me. inflammation
it caused me to have. but the worst part was. the high fever and head ack.

at first it wasn't vv bad. jus head ack. and feeling strength-less.
nevertheless, went down to se fest. thinkin that fri and sat i wont
b able to get the euphoria feel the festival had. i went. and waited.
gotten myself a few mosquito bites i think. and was sweating in my jeans.
wanted to catch OA. i did catch them. but with jus a glimpse from the outside.
owells. can't b helped. we shared tix. so waited and waited. jus to get myself
a few more bites frm da blood suckers. and soon the tix came and sat down
jus in time to only hear joshua talking. (-.-). at least i caught surreal!!!
and yea.. planet shakers. and my head cudn't take it anymore. cos of da
loud thumping sound systems. good thing was i got myself a nice white tee.
and i went home first. and as i was walkin to da mrt. my feet became hot !!
soon every part of my body went on fire and when before i slpt on that nite,
my head was the hottest in my entire life. and i cried out to God thinkin
i may become a victim of high fever. and cried til i fall asleep.

nxt morning, still went back to work, as da fever subsided. and ack was gone.
but the thing my throat hurts terribly when i swallowed. it was darn pain.
nvm abt dat. got sick again and big boss was kind enough to let me off
@ 230pm without the need to get MC! thank God man. cos i din wanna
see doc and pay fer some MC la. jus wanna slp and eat some painkillers.
yes it worked. but not fer long. prolly last till after j cell. but durin j cell i was hyped up.
and friday nnite, was the worst nightmare i ever had. my head temperature went up
again. and my mind suddenly seems to be in a whirlwind. many words flew here and there.
i was thinkin wat am i suppose to do durin the weekends. and i got all stressed up.
actually i did not even to do alot of things!! and touchin my head. i guess it pretty bad.
guess is around 40 degrees. and no doc. no medication. jus panadols, water and GOd.
once again. i cry to God. knowing i can only depend on Him and hold on to Him.
i was like someone drowning. only to see His hands reaching out fer me to grab it.

yes. Saturday. once again da fever subsided. and can conclude dat it wasn't
dengue fever. and music practice and rehearsal was tough fer me cos my ackin head
was still around. but towards da end of rehearsal, i found the peace in my brain!!
thank God man, cos i have overdue videos to finish up with st. soon, everything wrapped up.
and proceed to eat at hawker. my appetite opened up and i had nothing but the
calmed and non-ackin head. st's hse have everything!! 4 computers in his room.
haha. all fer different purposes. and tv!! and dvd player!! and a "jap" bed!! and
an amp! and an electric guitar!! da amp was so fun!! so many effects!!
we did the photos video first. until 3am !!!
we were thinkin how abt da other video!! i slpt at 5am. st went all da way only
to find him slpin outside on the sofa with his eyes open SLPING.
he was slpin with his eyes open!!! we rushed here and there. cos ending for the video
still got abit. and we finished it up. and yea, was late though.

and finally SFY is over. and i take in a breath of relief from the people and the event
aftermath. it was jus great to see the event "succeed", with a few glitches here and there.
ultimately, is GOd and wat He wanna do with it.

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experiencing God is a process no one can ever fathom.
changing by God is a process that will take over a period of time. no instance.
thanking God is a process to be done everyday without fail.
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