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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

05Jul05 Tue

with glee, i conquered the unthinkable.
perhaps the adrenaline rush comin from...
the thought of being able to start anew.

distorted.
can't fully comprehend my futile efforts.
my energy fused and snapped my emos.
bought myself too high up
and found myself havin acrophobia.
my fears conveyed to God.
finally able to jus depend on Him.
exuberance.
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i did smthing amazing.
i threw away all my mayday cds.
all the other "world" cds as well.
and my room felt "cleanse".
is like im starting a new chapter of my life.
jus feel bonded in da room.
and yes. i still hv lot more to clear.

hv been talkin much abt the church and ministry.
but somehow. i came to think within myself.
all it takes, is jus me.
i wanna hv big plans.
plans in God's path.
no longer da one lingering in the wild.

as much as i wan to be where i m now.
i feel as much to put down wad i have.
jus wanna b put in the correct place.
people's talk. people's way of doin things.
how much more can i accept?
alot more? i hope.
perspective turned and twisted.
is jus so unjust.

choices.