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Friday, March 18, 2005

utt: u dono me but i knw you. but i jus wanna ask u to be my partner fer da prom?


linda: mayb u can wait fer another ten yrs?



me: eek!



mean rite dat girl? but turns out to b attractin me to da show. aren't ya jus gettin tired of seein the same actresses around acting here n dere? something fresh now. tho da storyline is quite... so-so. but who cares!? utt oso quite a not-bad actor after all. don wanna sound too gay.



yesh. hv finally did smthing rite. but still, i did smthing bad. sigh. why! can't i get it all right?? mus keep tryin. mugged fer like on and off fer a few hrs. mayb studyin @ home ain't a good idea. hit da books with few chapters done. i wanna study!! i really do! oh dats me. sayin but doesn't have the drive. but i'm beginning to have it. ya. esp when da exams dates reminders come knockin on my hp. sure hafta do smthing abt it.



on the other hand, i wonder how some ppl cud jus enjoy life. and i'm poor. looks poor to me but seems to be able to get delicious food, watch some nice shows, concerts. arg. nah. not feelin envious. why shud i? wonder how many ppl gonna turn up fer da praise and worship seminar. not many i guess. will b fillin up their excuses form with God. ya. doin so without prayin and not askin God whether dey shud even skip da seminar. i'm not boasting. at my risk of gettin lock out of my hse, i shall go. beats me. i jus go.



feelin irritated. at the attitude. in an instance. blinded. can't see the reality of decisions. mada da wrong move. boom! there's go ur integrity, ur dignity. ur face. ur wadeva. shud one even talk abt wad happen in their family in da blog? dat's showin ur dirty linen in the public ya? nah. jus show how happy u r. blog ish jus a mask. a mask to cover. cover ur cowardness. ur ugliness. or describe ur ugliness in a few words. a few chim words. yes, again to cover the seriousness of the ugliness. irk!



y can't i don use the com fer a day. or even a week. goodness. i'm stuck. stuck in world of ppl where ppl don really care. problems floatin. why shud dey? world. round. but not found. me. lost. but was saved at all cost. dat's da reality. da innermost truth.